fake frowns - death cab for cutie

Nothing really happened today. I said to Trevor 'is Jared back yet?' and he said 'no', so i said 'do you know who kicked dirt in my face yet?' and he said 'no' and i said 'do you know i am able to do fifty four push ups now?' and he said 'no' He was not in a terribly good mood because he had not slept especially well last night due to a few of the monks who got loud and rowdy after some home brewed alcohol. I reminded him that at least he was invited to the barbeque and not left in a little cell with only a little window for company.

I finished Trevor's book today. I want to talk about it so if you intend on reading it someday then you might not want to read this next bit (although having said that i'm not sure if this book will ever get major publishing because Trevor is intent on keeping it to himself. "They are personal" he says.).

Samuel sees her coming, ever closer to the meteor shower. He tries with all his might to stop the meteors and although he is successful, he is moments too late, and a single meteor collides with his love and she turns into a space dust so beautiful that it illuminates all the now slow moving meteors and turns them a stunning aqua green colour. Samuel is left alone in a universe so beautiful it is only equalled by his sadness. Over a long long time life begins to spread through this universe and planets are born from which new things start. However, by the time this has happened, Samuel is long gone, wandering the universe in his infinite sadness, now spreading life wherever he goes but never aware that he is spreading it.

I told Trevor his story was sad, and Trevor said 'well, that's kind of the idea.'

I wasn't too sure what to say to that, so i didn't say anything.

I found myself thinking about Celes today, wondering what she was doing, and hoping that she might at some point during the day wonder what happened to that regular looking guy with a fairly average haircut and why he stood her up. Whatever she is doing and wherever she is doing it, i hope she is happy.

I said to Trevor, 'Do you think when Jared comes back he might let me apologise to Celes before he sets me on fire?' ( i have filled Trevor in on everything) and Trevor said 'i don't think so, because Jared is not a very lenient person.' So i said, 'But maybe if i told him what i had done, maybe he would reconsider?' and Trevor said, 'Maybe if you just joined us you could go down and tell her yourself,' but i am still not so keen on that idea yet.

I will have to make Jared understand my predicament. I don't think i would mind being set on fire so long as i could set this right first.

Blake out.